God, Please Go Away

God please go away

When Simon Peter realized what had happened, he fell to his knees before Jesus and said, “Oh, Lord, please leave me—I’m too much of a sinner to be around you.” Jesus replied to Simon, “Don’t be afraid! From now on you’ll be fishing for people!” And as soon as they landed, they left everything and followed Jesus.
(Luke 5)

It’s a great first step to ask Jesus to heal me from the wounds others have given me. It’s also good to change my lifestyle and drop bad habits.

When I suddenly realize all the wrongs I’ve done against myself, others, and God, that’s when I really understand whom Jesus is. That’s when I stop thinking God got a great deal when he got me.

That’s when I think about telling God to go away because I mess up everything I touch and if he lets me into his world I’ll mess that up too.

When I finally admit to God who I really am, instead of going away, he showers me with more love than I’ve ever known and meets my needs in ways much larger than I could have provided for myself.

Before, when I was filthy, I wanted everything for me; I wanted everyone to look at me. Then when I saw what a mess I really am, I didn’t want anyone to look at me.

As God cleaned me up, I found my greatest joy in living for the happiness and success of others. Then I asked myself, how could a wretched person like me do anything that will bring good to others?

“Don’t worry,” God says. “I’ll take care of that part too. You show up and let me use you just the way I created you. Then watch how many lives you’ll bless.”

Phillip Cohen